Yee’s

我一直覺得這條路的人很好，大概沒有壞人，每個人都天使，直到某天我被性騷擾之後才好好從天堂掉回人間。那天大概就是這樣一個景像，只是人沒那麼年輕，馬也只有一匹白色的，我覺得馬很美，而牽馬的爺爺也示意我可以摸他的馬，在我摸馬的同時，爺爺的手卻搓著我的手……。我原以為他只是在教我怎麼摸馬，但持續的時間有點太長，雖然覺得哪裡怪怪的但有沒有反抗，期間他一直用西文在跟我說話，當然我是聽不懂的，可是難得有摸馬的機會，我就跟他雞同鴨講。沒多久，一對西班牙夫妻突然停下來，先生走向我說「朋友，跟我一起走！」

這對夫妻是第一次見面，我不懂為何突然用嚴肅的語氣要帶我離開，但因為是真的該走了，我就依依不捨的跟爺爺還有馬說再見，後來他們跟我說，那個爺爺在問我要不要跟他做愛。那個放在我手上的手，也是某種程度的吃豆腐。我當下很感謝那對夫妻，沒有他們我不知道會發生什麼事。真的不知道。可能會被警察抓走，因為用登山杖不小心把人家的蛋蛋打爆之類。

I used to consider pilgrims on the French way are nice, even local people here are extremely accommodated, until someday I experienced sexual harassment. I suddenly realized it’s not how I pictured before.

It’s a hill-hiking day, I saw a beautiful white horse were eating besides the trail and its owner, an old local fella was standing aside, seems to be it’s owner. In my entire life, horses are not that easy to get close to( I’m not from an wealth family and horses are also rare in Taiwan). I think I was way too obvious that I want to touch that horse, the the owner sent a gesture, showing that I was welcome to have some interaction with that beautiful creature. I walked ahead, cautiously touch the horse, it was warm, prickly, a fresh felling. That old man then grabbed my hand, covering his hand above mine to show me how to smooth the horse. It was not wired in the beginning, but when he kept holding my hand, mumbling something in Spanish that I didn’t understand for over 5 minute.

I could sneeze something strange was happening, but I didn’t know exactly, at that moment there’s a pilgrim couple, which I hadn’t known them before, said to me with seriously tone as “come on, my friend!". I thought it was strange but it’s time to keep on walking. So I rashly goodbye to that old man then catching up with that couple.

After 100 meter away, they told me that the old man was saying" do you want to have sex with me?" repeatly, they saw me standing there alone and blindly, worrying I might be raped after, so they came up and save me out from the danger.

I felt sick while knowing the truth, but also felt amazed that pilgrims are kind enough to care others, even we are totally stranger. I was grateful that the story ends well.

後記：寫於2022年10月7日。

這是一個非常可怕的經驗，對於被性騷擾的這個事實，直到現在我也很少提起。並不是真的對這件事情難以啟齒，而是覺得在camino的這條路上，我希望能多留下來一些快樂的記憶，少一點悲傷的記憶。可是我常常說，走在camino上就像是人生的縮影，人生是擁有著多面向的組合體，永遠快樂是失控的、不切實際的，如果有機會，我想我會再多說一點這個故事。